Currently Listening Short Term Memories By Chris Rice see related

I just want to say that God is so amazing. I have never had as intimate a relationship with Him as I have had the past few months. I know that I have been seeking Him in everything in my life and I can now say that I know that I am truly following His will and plan for my life. It makes me so happy. For a long time I didn't even think that this type of joy and happiness was possible. I had to go through so much "stuff" to get to this point, but ya know what? Even though I completely hated having to go through those things, I wouldn't take any of those things back because I wouldn't be the woman that I am today without experiencing those things. I am now a strong, confident and caring woman who knows and loves God. I am so happy! There are some people who think that I am crazy because I am not going back to college or getting out of Michigan for a while. But no one said that Gods plans have to make sense. And I don't think that His plans are the same for everyone. If I know that I am following His good and perfect will, then why should I care what other people think about it? I should just live my life because God has given me joy, peace and happiness and I will not allow other peoples judgements to take that away from me. I have been able to bless other people, whether it be directly or indirectly, and I cannot turn my back on that. We are all called to serve, thats what Jesus did, and I am here to do that in whatever manner He has planned. I love life and I love all my friends and family. Most importantly, I love my Father!

Philippians 3:13-14

Soooo.....its been for real a long time since I've posted anything. But I have had a rough few months to be honest and I have just come to realize some things. My life will never feel complete and I'll never be truly happy until I start seeking God always in my life. I have really lost sight of that over, i dunno, the past 6 months. I had grown really depressed and then I experienced something I thought that I could handle and the truth is I wasnt as mature as I thought I was. God has a plan for me and I know that His plan is not that I be miserable. I thought that my ways were better than His but they have only led to unhappiness. Just because I think that I know whats best for my life doesnt mean that I really do and running away from God doesnt help anything. I need to run to Him. Even though it can be hard to be patient and I just want to see what will happen in my life, if I continue to seek Him, in the end I will be nothing but happy. Sorry if this is really depressing for people to read but I now have a chance at a new start. I know that it wont be easy but I also know that I have lots of people that love me and lots of people to support me and pray for me. If anyone who reads this that is a Christian could do me a favor and just pray for me. Pray that I may continue to seek Him and His will for me, even when, especially when, life gets hard. I know that I can take my experiences and grow from them and be a testimony for others. I just pray that i can remember to use Gods strength and to keep all this in mind so that I dont stumble like this again and if I do, that I turn to Him right away. 

Currently Reading How to Win Friends & Influence People By Dale Carnegie see related

The thing that I think is most fun about being a christian is watching God in action. The priciples of sowing and reaping are just amazing. I guess one thing that I realized lately is that if you just sit back on thing about the good things, even the little bitty good things, that happen to you in life you can really figure out that those good things are from God. And sometimes you can even look back and see what may be the cause of the good things God has blessed you with.